NSigma - Rock Bottom

〈verse 1〉
Let me take you back to the spring of my sophomore year
Every single day getting harder to persevere
Wake up every morning and my head is steady pounding
Try to run away but the pain is always surrounding
Feeling trapped
Handicapped
I was forced to adapt
I had to find a way to keep my mental in tact
But if i’m being honest i just really do not know if
I can bear the pain of my recent diagnosis
Ask the doctor why my head be hurting in a state of permanence
But he ain’t got no answer so you know that i was learning quick
No one gonna save me, yeah nobody be concerned with this
I’m reaching for the weed it quickly turned into my burning fix
Hardly seeming like a fix if suffering multiply
Got me feeling pissed that my chance is never coming by
To feel a moment of the bliss but never discussing why
I keep playing the victim think i’m hitting my
〈chorus〉
Rock bottom rock bottom
Got me feeling so defeated
Rock bottom rock bottom
Got my energy depleted
Rock bottom rock bottom
But i could be the prevailer
'cause a smooth sea never made a skilled sailor

〈verse 2〉
My condition getting worse with time, clearly i remember
When depression overtook my mind later that december
Refused to open up about my suffering thats hidden
While it bottled up inside as i’m confined, bedridden
Nobody can relate to a disorder so unique
So i kept all of the pain within and never chose to speak
And slowly all the suicidal thoughts began to sneak
In my mind, went online to go find a technique
Can’t take it any longer i just want the pain to end
But then one day i chose to confide in my closest friend
I tell him that i’m done with this world and i plan on leaving
My eyes filled with tears as i type out my demons

〈chorus〉
Rock bottom rock bottom
Got me feeling so defeated
Rock bottom rock bottom
Got my energy depleted
Rock bottom rock bottom
But i could be the prevailer
'cause a smooth sea never made a skilled sailor
〈verse 3〉
My friend made me a promise i’ll return to good health
Said if doctors cannot find a cure i’ll do it myself
Those words struck a chord helped me see the silver lining
Sharpening my mental sword my perspective redefining
This torture in my head it became my greatest weapon
Letting go my resistance looking like my latest blessing
Started to believe that i could hold on for a bit longer
Every single ounce of pain it making me a bit stronger
Things were looking up, feeling love, feeling hope
Feeling grateful for the challenges allowing me to grow
Now when my back's against the wall i’m in my element
I started to build up my worth and work on self development
Crazy that this came from a conversation on snapchat
Turned my headaches from a nightmare to something i laugh at
When all is said and done, i think its a fact that
I am no longer trapped at

〈outro〉
Rock bottom rock bottom
Don’t know how i made it happen
But i went from rock bottom to forever taking action
Now the grind is never ending from the winter to the autumn
Moving through the violent sea 'cause i came from rock bottom

NSigma is a first generation American hip-hop artist of Indian descent. While pursuing a degree in computer science at the University of Florida, he began preforming freestyle raps for students on campus and posting them to social media. Soon after, he released his debut EP titled Lucidity. This 4-track project introduced NSigma as an artist with a unique style, blending fast flows and catchy hooks with meaningful lyrics that impart a deep emotional resonance in the listener. As he works on his first full length album, NSigma continues to share his music with the world by performing live freestyle raps at local venues and on his college campus.