Sara Sonder - S.I.C.K.

I’m tired of fighting, against it
It’s a never ending, spiral
I’m never getting, out
Can you help me get out?

Another day waking up feeling dead
Where can I find the strength to leave this bed?
The same old routine, the same old mistakes
They say that I am free but I feel like a slave

What is this place that I don’t even recognize
I look in the mirror and see someone else’s eyes
Where is it? The spark that they use to keep
It has flown away with my aspirations and dreams

I gotta go, gotta work till the sun’s down
I gotta play their game or end up underground
‘I would rather die than be another one of them’
That’s what I used to say, but honey now I understand

There’s no other option here, there is no plan b
It’s pretty simple, you gotta choose, sink or swim
And even if you try your best to stay afloat
Even if you try hard, it will never be enough

‘Cause they’ve showed us what happiness should be
But once we get there we only feel empty
You realize they lie to us straight to our face
And after all, all you can feel is this rage

That keeps you alive, ‘cause it’s the only thing you feel
Not to mention all the pain you’ve been keeping all this years
Is this what they call ‘the american dream’?
I’ve had better nightmares while I was sleeping

This world is their machine, we’re only broken pieces
I know I don’t fit in, that’s why sometimes I feel so useless
I think this life is meaningless, I try to find some answers
But the more I know the more I want to hide from all this pressure

It’s like walking around with two hands around my neck
The more I try to breath the more I feel close to the edge
I’ve learnt I gotta keep all my emotions to myself
But by doing this I explode, I am such a mess

Full of all the thoughts that I cannot express
I wasn’t hollow inside, but now I don’t know what to say
I’m surrounded by this robots that keep walking while I’m crying
And I’m hoping someone would just look at me and hold my hand

Desperate, I don’t know what I’m fighting for
Sometimes it feels useless just to walk through the door
I guess there’s one more thing I gotta understand
Even if I change, not everyone’s gonna change

I don’t know who I am, what I want, where to go
This life’s like a race and I’m not fast enough