YAOUNDÉBOXINGCLUB - Self-Care 101

Last christmas i was broken and hopeless
Life fell apart and i think nobody noticed
I asked too much of myself and i know it
Need to give me a chance, need to be kind to myself, oh

Can't keep on carrying this guilt
That’s deep inside me instilled
How am i supposed to put up with it?
Cause i never feel enough
Never ending self-disgust
What if my brain was just full of shit?

I keep killing myself over things that i can't change
Overthinking, i'm building my own cage
Seeing clearly now, i’m master of my fate
Whatever's written i'll just tear off the damn page
I'm sick and tired of being stuck in my head
Wanna go out and live a little instead
I can't keep waiting, i'll get sleep when i'm dead
And if i'm thirsty drink the tears i’ve shed, ah

Last summer, finally picked up the pieces
And started living without needing a reason
Floating around, unaware of the season
Got my feet on the ceiling and i love this feeling
Can’t keep on carrying this guilt
That's deep inside me instilled
How am i supposed to put up with it?
Cause i never feel enough
Never ending self-disgust
What if my brain was just full of shit?

I keep killing myself over things that i can’t change
Overthinking, i'm building my own cage
Seeing clearly now, i'm master of my fate
Whatever's written i’ll just tear off the damn page
I'm sick and tired of being stuck in my head
Wanna go out and live a little instead
I can't keep waiting, i'll get sleep when i'm dead
And if i'm thirsty drink the tears i've shed, ah

Oh, oh
Oh, oh
I can't keep blaming myself
For the things i can't help
Oh, oh
Oh, oh
Oh

Got a million pounds on my chest
And i never thought to ask for help
But i've carried this weight for way too long
Never thought that i could be enough
Never felt worthy of the love
And now i know that i couldn't have been more wrong
I can't keep blaming myself
For the things i can't help
Keep killing myself over things that i can't change
Overthinking, i'm building my own cage
Seeing clearly now, i'm master of my fate
Whatever's written i'll just tear off the damn page
I'm sick and tired of being stuck in my head
Wanna go out and live a little instead
I can't keep waiting, i'll get sleep when i'm dead
And if i'm thirsty drink the tears i've shed, ah

22 year-old French singer, songwriter, producer and mix engineer YAOUNDÉBOXINGCLUB has been quietly working on new music in the past year whilst producing and engineering for other artists. When she previously performed as MJ Bodson, she was known for her minimalist approach to songwriting and producing. After much thought and a rebrand, she’s approaching music differently — infusing alternative pop with sprinkles of popular African music such as soukous and makossa, as well as alternative R&B and Garage to create her own unique sound.