Blood Girl - I'll Be Happy Too

I haven’t done my best but ill do it now
All these years i was too busy fighting for my life
Now i feel like i am allowed to sleep
I can crawl into my bed and melt into my sheets
If im too paralysed to get up after all
I will stay in bed and scrapbook not just lie and sulk
I will continue on
I will not hurt myself
I will stay alive i’ll make the very best of it

I know my shrink she says im not nice to myself
But i will try to act as though i am my dearest friend
I will brush my teeth and i will take my meds
I will do all of the things i couldn't do back then
If im too sick to do what i want to do
I will make a list to make sure that im able to
I will forgive myself
For years I’ve spent in bed
And i will stay alive so i can play my songs and sing

I haven’t lost the game im just not good at it yet
And that is fine when i have all this time to be the best
I will clean my room ill do laundry too
I will even take a shower i won’t fucking lose
If everything feels dark i will close my eyes
And i will count the moving lights and all the dancing stars
I will take a breath
I will ground myself
And i will sleep and wake up try again another day

Why does it seem so abstract to be fine?
At least i am not crying all the time now
Stomach please stop bubbling with rocks
Churning full of fear and full of knots
But i will prove them wrong, every single dark thought
That doubted me ill prove to them that illness hasn’t won so
I dont think ill ever be like you
But ill be happy too

Yeah, i will prove them wrong, every single dark thought
That doubted me ill prove to them that illness hasn't won so
I dont think i'll ever be like you
But i'll be (i'll be)
Happy (happy)
Too

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