Crypt - Don't Know Why

〈verse 1: crypt〉
I just want to vent, problems are a part of this life
And i know that everybody after there gotten
But the problem with this is i don't even know what my problem is
All i know is lately i've been feeling low as the bottom
And i've been tryna pick myself up
All i really want to feel is some self love
Reaching out, i really need to be helped up
I've been doing all i can, but it's not enough
And i've been folding my hands, looking up to the sky
Talking to god, asking him why
Why am i like this? why can't i fight this?
Why am i losing this battle? i'm trying
I feel like i'm dying inside, i'm exhausted
Fighting these demons inside of me constant
Please, come relieve me of this life, i'm lost, and
Sometimes i feel like i have been forgotten
And rotting away, plotting the day
That i drop in the plot of my grave
This day and age, it feels like the only way
That i could ever get close to stopping my pain
I'm probably insane, i know it
Most of you know where your sadness started and control it
But, man, i've been sad for a reason, i don't even know
An invisible enemy, fighting these ghosts
And i blame it on the changing of the seasons
Blame it on the path of my career
Blame it on the things that i've been eating
Blame it on the man that's standing in the mirror
But the truth is i've been guessing all of it
This depression seems to have a mind of its own
Striking at the moment that i least expect it
Wait until i think that it's been gone
〈chorus: mcgwire〉
'cause i ain't ever felt a pain quite like this
Feels like i play to side of my sight and twist
My days have turned to nights, i'm questioning my life
And i just want to cry, i don't know why

〈verse 2: elijah kyle〉
Yeah, lost in my head is a cycle
Check my post, i don't see no vitals
I don't really see no heroes
See my demons and all these rifles
Pain always been my rival
Talking to god, but i still do fight you
Things that we love turn quick in a hate
I've been hurting every day, but i like to
I don't really know why i feel like this, whole lot done change in the year
Couldn't tell you last time i could recognize myself, i don't know who's inside of that mirror
Try to call drop with the bottle in my hands, but if haven has a line, can you ring my phone?
I don't understand why don't matter how much love i receive, in the end i just feel so alone
I could really use advice right now
I don't got a clue when the mic's turn down
I can hear applause from the crowd, but i'm lost the sounds
Of my own damn thoughts right now
Feels like i'm stuck under water in screen, and survival
Anxiety breaks me and eats me alive
To the point that i question if i should comply
With my demons, i'm sick of just living a lie
I know that trauma is something we carry
And fear of the unknown can really be scary
We think about people that have to be buried
We all have a limit, the time'll get varied
That's why i keep working, no breaks ever given
I can't use depression as means it just given
I'm hoping i see what i always envision
Instead of just dreading the feeling of living, damn
〈chorus: mcgwire〉
'cause i ain't ever felt a pain quite like this
Feels like i play to side of my sight and twist
My days have turned to nights, i'm questioning my life
And i just want to cry, but i don't know why

Crypt (born January 4, 1995), formerly known as RedCrypt is an American rapper. Crypt started his YouTube channel on June 15, 2012, and has since gathered over 600,000 subscribers. He was also known for being apart of the American esports clan Red Reserve.