​doan - Trying To Believe

〈verse 1〉
You came into my life, you were interested in what i like
And then you fucking left and ruined all of it
And music that i put you on to, way of life, places i've gone to
Everything i do now just reminds me of you
I think that i'm learning how to live this lonely life
But remember when i bought that diamond ring, you could've been my wife
I'm all by myself now every day, i'm just trying to try
Drugs numbing the pain, when i feel down (fuck)
I need to catch a flight

〈chorus〉
'cause i need to get back to where my mind deserves to be
And right now it feels locked up, and i'm just trying to set it free
Now these negative emotions won't stop coming over me
I'm just trying to believe that it's a good thing when you leave

〈verse 2〉
And all those fucking stupid songs i wrote after i did you wrong
Were all waste of breath, i can't believe you fucking stayed this long
When everything was falling down, you were my pick me up
You got me out this stupid town now i wish you the best of luck
Or maybe i just hope you become the person that you never wanted to be
But saying that out loud just feels wrong
I hope that you enjoy being free
〈chorus〉
'cause you need to get back to where your life deserves to be
And right now i'm all chocked up, but i'm just happy that you're free
Still, these negative emotions won't stop coming over me
Now i'm just tryna believe that it's good you're without me

〈outro〉
I wish i could just go back to the day we first met
I would tell you that, "you don't want me, 'cause i'm a fucking wreck"
You don't want this lonely local boy, whose life is such a mess
And could've saved me from the pain that i've felt since you left