EinBaer - Orchestral Overdose

〈verse 1〉
Honest to god i can't really recall when i've had a rejuvenating rest
Had i known just how far i would fall, i would stay where i was being surpressed
Kinda like running into a wall, there was trouble anytime i expressed 〈myself〉
No one wanted to take care at all, everyone was busy being too stressed 〈my health is〉

A constant decline, something i can't define
When did it become normal to overlook thе signs?
A reason to whine, "shut up evеrything's fine!"
Some people don't believe in it like it's climate science

"it could be much worse", they don't see how it hurts
I struggle to see how nowadays are better times
No way to reverse, this unliftable curse
I don't know if it's helping that there's so many kinds

〈bridge〉
*sigh* year number 5
I still have to find the joy in being alive
I'm in the city but i don't feel like i arrived
Should i stop hoping psychiatry might fix my drive? i've had...
Sertraline, quetiapine, bupropion, promethazine
Venlafaxine, escitalopram, vyvanse & atomoxetine
Ritalin, opipramol, prothipendyl, nortriptyline
Should i move onto bigger stuff i never heard or ever seen?
I just need something to make me feel like...

〈verse 2〉
Freude schöner götterfunken
Ich fühle mich endlich frei
Freude als wär' ich betrunken
Wundermittel der arznei

Ich sorg' mich um meine freude
Bin ich versorgt oder nur high
Mach' nun schluss mit zeit-vergeude
Winke winke angst, bye-bye

Laut und stolz kann ich nun rufen
Ich bin mir sicher wer ich sei
Steig' hoch auf den treppenstufen
Depression ist nun vorbei

Endlich geht mein leben weiter
Medizin ist zauberei
Letzten endes bin ich heiter
Endlich schluss mit quälerei

Mir liegt die welt vor den füßen
Hab' ich gewonnen im preisverleih?
Kann mir jeden tag versüßen
Spüre glück in allerlei
Ich hab' kontrolle im leben
Einfach so wie das ; 1 2 3
Nun hab' ich was zum anstreben
Tschüss mentale schreierei