Johns L - Anyways, don't care

I was young, when they said
Is not ok to be who i am
I was young, rumores started
I was older, i didn't find my way
And it hurts, it hurts a lot
I was hidding in the darkness of a box
Tried be strong, but monsters found my way
And they hurt
Hide my being behind a smile
My eyes hurt with my own soul yeah
Is ok, i guess i'm made of clay
I guess they will never care
Or some like this
Just, anyways don't care
But i care
How to be strong when my mind is out of me?
How to be brave when i'm made of glass?
How do i love somebody if i don't know what love is?
Wakin' up in my dreams
Feeling i didn't breathе
Like the monster insidе my closet
Is trying to scape right from it
Know, i knew always knew
That it will never be true
And the way word anyways looks like my favorite now
I can't smile anymore
Even if my smiles are fake
I guess anyways don't care
But i care and i hate
All the way they scream change then betray
I don't really understand
Anyways guess don't care now
How to be strong when my mind is out of me?
How to be brave when i'm made of glass?
How do i love somebody if i don't know what love is?
Wakin' up in my dreams
Feeling i didn't breathe
Like the monster inside my closet
Is trying to scape right from it
I don't really understand no no
But right now anyways guess never cared