Blood Girl - Vampire

Hold me closer
Wait until i break
I promise i was fine last week
But now i am a mess
And i wish that i was better
Like the people on tv
They go outside and do shit
And they don't have ocd
And i promise i was happy once or
Maybe i was not
Maybe i've been sad forever
Isn't that fucked up?
I can't say, "oh, i miss the times where everything was great"
'cause there has never been a year where things were just okay
My brain isn't messy
It's leather, slimy, snot
I wish i had a scalpel so i could slice it all up
I'd sort it into pieces
The good and all the sad
I'd have like 20 percent left of things that aren't bad
And i think that i'm annoying
And maybe i am not
Everything i say always sounds so fucking lost
I cling on to people with everything i've got
Hoping they won't squish me like a tiny, nasty bug
'cause i lure people in with my patheticness
Then i run away 'cause i don't like myself
I go from being clingy to distant and it sucks
I wish that i was more than a little fucking bug
'cause i lure people in with my patheticness
Then i run away 'cause i don't like myself
I go from being clingy to distant and it sucks
I wish that i was more than a little fucking bug
Hold my hand and then i'll go away
I sucked all of your life stream out and now you can't escape
It's like i am a vampire
I feel like i'm a thief
I steal people's time
Because of all my needs
And i'm sorry i can't hear you
When you tell me it's not real
You tell me that you have no problem being there for me
'cause my mirror tells me differently
It tells me i'm fucked
It tells me i'm manipulating all the ones i love
And i make myself available for everyone to use
And i never actually tell anyone if i need them too
'cause i'm better off just wanting things but never speaking up
'cause then i can just tell myself that it is all my fault
That i want all the things that i could never get
That i want a little break from my sicky brain
That i need a little hug so i can disappear
That i need a little hug to make me feel i am here
'cause i want all the things that i could never get
And i want a little break from my sicky brain
And i need a little hug so i can disappear
And i need a little hug to make me feel like i am here

Blood Girl is a 21 year old clown who sings about sadness and existential dread
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